Asssalamualaikum...
Pagi suda ni..suda 31 hb..but banyak lagi benda belum cover tuk final exam 4hb nnti. Semoga Allah mudahkan perjalanan ini Insya Allah.. However.. I still made myself to spend some time exploring things..Things that related to Islam...mcm addict tul suda ni...but it's a good one..Insya Allah..hehehe..So tgh explore2..ada la satu blog ni..SUBHANALLAH...Akhirnya aku jumpa suda jawapan kepada masalah hati ni.. Alhamdulillah..terima ksih YA ALLAH!
Penulis artikel ni sama jak cara pemikiran kami sblm dapat mentafsir hikmah apa yg berlaku... Suka sangat dengan cara penulisan dia sbb mirip sama keadaan aku dulu..huhuhu.. Dengan izin Allah akhirnya aku dapat suda jawapan terhadap apa yg berlaku even not 100% but it still bernilai Alhamdulillah =).
Okie..sedikit ulasan artikel ni...from cyaerah's point of view hokey...:
Tajuk artikel dia.. “Why do people have to leave each other?”..huhuhu..Aku tertarik sama tajuk dia sbb terasa mcm whoa..interesting..and i just clicked on it..seperti penulis..aku pn mcm dia...klu org yg rapat sama aku mmg tau aku ni kuat menangis..even for a small things (nda kena sama muka garang hahahha) but hey..that's me makhluk ciptaan Allah bernama Nur Shahirah Azman.. Aku pn lebih terasa strong attachment sama org2 di sekeliling aku...tempat..etc...key point is surroundings around me had played an important role..Aku ingat lagi dulu time aku msk asrama..iya2 btul mo masuk asrama pas tu last2 aku kuar juga sbb ada beberapa konflik di kalangan kawan rapat (huhuhu..silly of me right?). Before that I got a very ideal imagination..mo study sama2..ssh ssnng sama etc...it's not that they didn't got the same idea as me but their ideas so different..and me yg kuat merajuk ini mengambil keputusan tidak mo bertoleransi and mo melarikan diri daripada masalah ini..so i got out from hostel after just 3 months... (huh~~) Tgk...because of this small matter...study aku hancur sbb terlalu emosi..hahahah..And during that time..I still blaming other people (mcm aku jak innocent padahal aku ja yg kuat merajuk..astagfirullah..) Suka statement ni:
" My tears, once set in motion, did not stop easily. As I grew up, I learned to become attached to everything around me. From the time I was in first grade, I needed a best friend. As I got older, any fall-out with a friend shattered me. I couldn’t let go of anything. People, places, events, photographs, moments—even outcomes became objects of strong attachment. If things didn’t work out the way I wanted or imagined they should, I was devastated. And disappointment for me wasn’t an ordinary emotion. It was catastrophic. Once let down, I never fully recovered. I could never forget, and the break never mended. Like a glass vase that you place on the edge of a table, once broken, the pieces never quite fit again. But the problem wasn’t with the vase. Or even that the vases kept breaking. The problem was that I kept putting them on the edge of tables. Through my attachments, I was dependent on my relationships to fulfill my needs. I allowed those relationships to define my happiness or my sadness, my fulfillment or my emptiness, my security, and even my self-worth. And so, like the vase placed where it will inevitably fall, through those dependencies I set myself up for disappointment. I set myself up to be broken. And that’s exactly what I found: one disappointment, one break after another. "
Huhuhu..btul tu..kita terlalu meletakkan expectation melebihi segala2nya..lupa yang Sang Pencipta yang ada kuasa total 100% untuk menetapkan apa yang berlaku..but still..aku ni mengharapkan yang 'sempurna'...huh~~daif btul pengertian hidup yang aku ikut dulu..Alhamdulillah...hari ni pada usia 25 tahun (slps hari ini akan masuk 26 Insya Allah) aku paham suda Ya Allah apa yg berlaku dulu ada hikmah..yg aku rasa aku tahu tapi sebenarnya aku tidak phm sehingga la pada pagi ini Engkau tunjukkan jalannya..terima kasih Allah.. "We must also realize that nothing happens without a purpose. Nothing. Not even broken hearts. Not even pain. That broken heart and that pain are lessons and signs for us. They are warnings that something is wrong. They are warnings that we need to make a change. Just like the pain of being burned is what warns us to remove our hand from the fire, emotional pain warns us that we need to make an internal change. That we need to detach. Pain is a form of forced detachment. Like the loved one who hurts you again and again and again, the more dunya hurts us, the more we inevitably detach from it. The more we inevitably stop loving it. And pain is a pointer to our attachments. That which makes us cry, that which causes us most pain is where our false attachments lie. And it is those things which we are attached to as we should only be attached to Allah which become barriers on our path to God. But the pain itself is what makes the false attachment evident. The pain creates a condition in our life that we seek to change, and if there is anything about our condition that we don’t like, there is a divine formula to change it. God says: “Verily never will God change the condition of a people until they change what is within themselves.” (Qur’an, 13:11)".
Perkara yang aku paham adalah rupa2nya selama ini Allah izinkan semua ini berlaku supaya aku balik kepadaNya...kembali mengadu padaNya..sbb dalam tempoh ini mungkin aku lalai dalam mengingatiNya..aku mohon ampun dari Mu Ya Allah sbb alpa dgn dunia ini.. Patutla dulu time skola menengah..even banyak problem yang aku hadapi tapi stil aku rasa snng jak mau belajar..lebih fokus..sbb waktu itu (one of my hardest moment in life) aku selalu ingat Allah..aku selalu minta Allah kuatkan semangat aku..aku rajin 'kaunseling' diri sendiri yang nda pa shahirah..Insya Allah lepas ni tiada apa2..Ingat lagi waktu form 6 time tu aku tumpang d umah one of my bestfriend Noy..waktu mo p exam STPM..itulah 1st time aku pigi dewan exam tanpa salam tangan mumy tuk minta restu..but during that time hati jak sayu tapi airmata aku nda pun jatuh..sbb aku percaya..mumy kasi doa aku..Insya Allah...Allah ada..
Masa berlalu..aku semacam terlupa ni... pegangan itu..bukan cakap aku lupa Allah but aku nda tau sejauh mana perbuatan atau percakapan aku yang mencerminkan kebergantungan total kepada Allah atau lebih tepat aku rasa aku lalai...hati ini lalai..Astagfirullah..Maafkan aku Ya Allah atas kelalaian ini.. Alhamdulillah..rupa2nya Allah masih peduli..DIA hantar aku sahabat2/kawan2/kenalan2 yang bagi impact yang kuat kepada aku untuk mengingatiNya.. Mereka ini adalah hamba Allah yang kebanyakkannya aku baru kenal di Kl ni..as I mention before..aku ni have strong attachment kepada kawan2 @ tempat2 yang aku biasa or in other words my comfort zone..so time mula smpai di sini..dalam new environment @ with new people aku rasa terasing ni..rasa ditinggalkan sorang2..teda sapa2 w/pn dikelilingi ole ramai org..dan lebih tepat lagi aku rasa ditinggalkan..Masa mula2 d UM dlu..aku sedi btul sbb kena p KL kasi tinggal umah d KK and my family..1st month mula smpai aku jatuh sakit. So aku rasa that's my turning point to Allah.. Allah kasi kejadian ini berlaku sbb mo bagi aku pengajaran hidup..mo aku bergantung kepadaNya only..And dari hamba Allah yang dibincangkan sebelum inilah sebagai medium pertolongan dengan izinNya..Terima ksih Ya Allah..and terima kasih atas pertolongan kalian...no regrets sbb apa yg terjadi mesti ada hikmah..tiada kebetulan melainkan suda ditentukan oleh Allah.
Whoa..lama btul plak aku mengarang kali ni..so kena stop suda from today..no more internet Insya Allah..aku mo fokus final..oh iya..ni link artikel tu..mana tau mo baca sndiri..heheheh http://www.suhaibwebb.com/personaldvlpt/character/why-do-people-have-to-leave-each-other/.
That's all CYAERAH sign out!! Assalamualaikum =)
